Thursday, October 22, 2015
Struggling to Create
I have been frustrated lately with life's ongoing balance. All good things, but yet things, that "get in the way" of my TTD list and cause me to move things from one day to the next when I don't accomplish what I set out to on a given day.
I struggle because work is busy, life is busy, as it is for all of us; I'm not out of the ordinary. I have a senior in high school which brings with it many new things...things that need to be accomplished, applications to be completed, college visits to schedule and complete, etc. Most importantly, the realization that my first born is about to fly the coop, and I am NO WHERE NEAR READY!!
So, I have been working hard to appreciate the time I have now with my daughter as we negotiate this new world of making future plans--all the while trying to ignore what it all means long term--as well as managing the day to day life a family with three busy kids brings.
Sometimes I want to crawl under the covers, ignore the world until my house is quiet and empty and then have the day to myself to tackle what needs to be done and maybe, just maybe, have some time to write as well; but, ultimately, I haven't yet done that much as I'd like to do so.
I was just in the store the other day shopping for the necessary items on my kids' lists and saw this sign. It really hit home...I spend a lot of time dreaming of what I want and hope to accomplish but while I may inspire to do so, I've not actually done much recently. I spend a lot of time imagining what I want to create but haven't actually sat, butt in chair, and spent time creating something new. I do, or really want to, believe I can and will write, but, in order to really achieve that goal, there is always something in my way I feel the need to accomplish first.
I'm on a mission to just flat out spend time to INSPIRE, CREATE and ACHIEVE and not just DREAM, IMAGINE and BELIEVE.
I'm so very open to advice should you be willing and interested in sharing. This is an ongoing dilemma for many of us, I know. I am also working hard to stop expecting time to just fall in my lap. I need to make the time, fight for the time and use it wisely. Goal for November!
Good luck to all of you NaNoWriMo people. I wish you well and hope to do so next November. This year, I will just focus on writing a little bit each day.